|By Marc Middleton | November 23, 2012 | Comments|
On his personal problems and past injuries: "I had two discs removed from my neck, hip replacement, part of my left foot removed, compound fracture in my right arm, wrist reconstruction, broken sternum splice. Other than that, I was in horrible shape…I had a well publicized, by my own admissions, a career with alcohol and drugs did not help my situation. I had become so depressed that, not that I would have ever done it… I may have tried a couple of times…but suicide was something I thought about a lot.
"So depressed that I had blown my career…I could have been so much more than I was. Gone through three marriages, fathered eight children but wasn't a dad to any of them, I was too busy wrestling or being high. You start looking at yourself at that point and you hate yourself…I had a lot of shame, a lot of anger, a lot of freakin' anger, basically I had given up. I didn't want to live. I had no hope. I had no dreams. I hope nobody out there gets to that point, but when you quit dreaming, when you quit having hope, it's a pretty god dam horrible place to be. You don't care if you breath. You don't care about anything."
On his recent "Resurrection" through DDPYoga: "Dallas called me, asked how I was doing, I bulls--tted and I lied, said I was getting through it, and he said, 'Man…you don't sound right?' Well, man, it is what it is, I just don't give a s--t anymore. I buried my father, my mother was in poor health, a whole bunch of reasons to use and I sure took advantage of them. I'd drink…because that was the only time I could forget where I was at. He said he wanted come see me and to send me some yoga stuff and I was like 'are you f---ing kidding me? Right, Jake 'The Snake' is doing yoga! I may have been screwed up enough to play a snake, but I ain't doing yoga dude.'
"He said, if you'll try…and you start losing weight…there might be something I can do for you, and it would be long term and would be an opportunity…to try something different since the bulls--t I was doing obviously wasn't working…so I did the food thing for like ten 11 days, didn't really think a whole lot about it, then one day I got on the scale and was like 'holy s--t I've lost 14 lbs, what the hell's wrong with me? I must be dying!' That was the first time I thought this might actually work…a couple weeks later he came down…and was like, ok 'keep doing the good work, when you get down to 30 lbs, we'll move you down to Atlanta, and we'll get serious on this s--t'…at that point I was still drinking too much, but we'll get to that in a minute."
On his recent inebriated appearance at an indy event: "When I got down to Atlanta, DDP was like 'OK, the first thing we need to talk about is your drinking…why do you drink?' and I was just like 'Well, I like it'…so I'm like OK,OK,OK I'll play your silly f*cking game and I said well how about a couple of beers? So he agreed, we'll try sticking to two beers. Well that lasted about a week…
"I went out on an autograph thing on Rhode Island. Did really well, didn't drink for a two or three days during the signing, and I spoke to a lot of people and they were just patting me on the back, saying how much better I looked with all the weight I had lost, saying 'damn Jake you haven't looked this good in years, keep up the good work'…well, you shouldn't tell a drunk or an addict these things. Like everything else in life, I use whatever situation I am in to get drunk or get high. In this instance it was 'man you deserve a reward'.
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